Inner beauty

It has been a while since I have written. I think I will pick Psalm 56:8-13 today.

"Record my lament: list my tears on your scroll - are they not in your record?  Then my enemies will turn back when I call for help.  By this I will know that God is for me.  In God, whose word I praise, in the Lord, whose word I praise - in god I trust; I will not be afriad.  What can man do to me? I am under vows to you, O God; I will present my thank offerings to you.  For you have delivered me from death and my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before God in the light of life."

 I like the whole thing but I think it si funny witht the last line inparticular "For you have delivered me from death and my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before God in the light of life."  How many times I've stumbled on to my butt and crashed.  Oh dear God you forgot to give me balance, I am far from graceful.  I take martial arts and I'm still small and clumbsy.  You still show how much You love me by knowing all of my tears and comforting me when I am sad and knowing when it is my turn to stand up to my enemies.  I try to be nice but yet I have enemies.  I often wish I was a taller more graceful woman.  I remember falling down several stair cases in my day.
   Yet still a couple days a go my cat got in the garage (at least it was closed). I grabed her but before I did I turn and slipped off the step and my ankle twisted and pooped.  It's a good thing I have a strong ankle cause nothing happened too it.  Thank goodness I do all that exercising to make my ankles stronger or it'd have problably broken or something.  I am very prone to knocking things over in the grocery store as well.  I do get caught up in my emotions and have nights of crying but I know I am doing better.  Before I go humiliating myself in this entire blog I just want to think God one more time for loving such a clumbsy and emotional woman as myself.  I will always be under vows to You. Even if the currency changes and removes "In God I trust," I will always trust in You.  I know better now than to doubt.  I know being sad is ok but so is moving on.  God is soo amazing and I have known Him for a long time but I feel I am enjoying reading more of my scriptures these days.  Hard to explain but true.  I may be over whelemed but I am blessed at the same time.  God is awesome cause He knows I wont be happy all the time He is there when I am deppressed too.  At least I don't have to go this life alone or have to understand everything perfectly.  Another way to prove how kind God can be.